Saturday 28 June 2008

"Before Sunset"

I have seen the movie a million times and each time I relate to a different part or a different part hits me. This is what Celine says in one of her rants...

I was thinking...
For me it's better I don't romanticize things as much anymore.
I was suffering so much all the time.
I still have lots of dreams, but they're not in regard to my love life.
It doesn't make me sad, it's just the way it is.

Is that why you're in a relationship with somebody who's...
never around?


Yes, obviously, I can't deal with the day to day life of a relationship.
Yeah, we have, you know,
this exciting time together and then he leaves and I miss him,
but at least I'm not dying inside.
When someone is always around me, I'm like suffocating!

No, wait, you just said that you need to love and be loved...

Yeah, but when I do, it quickly makes me nauseous!
It's a disaster...
I mean, I'm really happy only when I'm on my own.
Even being alone...
it's better than...
sitting next to a lover and feeling lonely.
It's not so easy for me to be a romantic.
You start off that way, and,
after you've been screwed over a few times...
You... you forget about all your delusional ideas, and you
just take what comes into your life.
That's not even true, I haven't been...
screwed over, I've just had too many...
blah relationships. They weren't mean, they cared for me, but...
they were no real... connection, or excitement.
At least, not from my side.
You know...
it's not even that, I was...
I was fine.
Until I read your fucking book!
It stirred shit out from you,
It reminded me how... genuinely romantic I was,
how I had so much hope in things and...
now it's like...
I don't believe in anything that relates to love,
I don't feel things for people anymore.
In a way...
I put all my romanticism into that one night
and I was never able to feel all this again.
Like...
somehow this night took things away from me and...
I expressed them to you and you took them with you!
It made me feel cold, like if love wasn't for me!
You know what?
Reality and love are almost contradictory for me.
But it's my fault, I know that it's my fault, because...
I never felt it was the right man.
Never!
But what does it mean the right man? The love of your life?
The concept is absurd,
the idea that we can only be complete with another person is...
EVIL!
Right?
You know, I guess I've been heart broken too many times.
And then I recovered.
So now, you know, form the start, I make no effort.
Because I know exactly whats going to happen!

Amazing shit!

Thursday 3 April 2008

It's all over...?

They had grown further and further apart and she couldn't understand it. Then it finally happened. He told her it was over. And that was it. She kept asking for an explanation but she never got one. She could see he was hurting too but he just wouldn't open up. One day she walked up to him and refused to leave.
"I want answers and I want them right now."
"Trust me, you don't wanna know."
"Just tell me and get it over with."
"It just wasn't you. It was never ever going to be you. You were never the one."
"But you said I was!"
"Because I wanted to believe it, I was desperate to. You're the best woman I've ever known, your values, your kindness, your beauty, I mean you're everything I've ever looked for, when I finally found you, I felt for sure that I'd fall so deeply in love, I kept waiting for it to happen, but... It didn't."
"You never loved me?"
"No I do, I still do. But I've known greater love with women who for other reasons weren't right. Look, I knew that marrying you would be the smart thing to do, I mean, you'd be a good mother, we'd be great companions, the most practical thing I could have ever done would have been to marry you, but part of me would have also died inside because... I have no passion for you. You know I actually used to pray, "God, let me fall in love with her more, please, let me feel it"...... Should I have told you all that? Do you feel better knowing?"

It was too much to take. But she realised that she was going to be fine. Atleast she understood it now. And imagine what would have happened if he hadn't broken it off. She would have been with a man who didn't love her. Now, what could be more awful than that! Right??!!?!

Wednesday 19 March 2008

Good shit...

"Happiness makes up in height what it lacks in length" - ROBERT FROST

Friday 8 February 2008

MAYBE I'M AMAZED - JEM

Maybe I'm amazed at the way you love me all the time
Maybe I'm afraid of the way i love you
Maybe I'm amazed at the way you pulled me out of time
And hung me on a line
Maybe I'm amazed at the way i really need you

Maybe I'm a girl and maybe I'm a lonely girl
Who's in the middle of something
That she doesn't really understand

Maybe I'm a girl and maybe you're the only man
Who could ever help me
Baby won't you help me understand

Maybe I'm a girl and maybe I'm a lonely girl
Who's in the middle of something
That she doesn't really understand

Maybe I'm a girl and maybe you're the only man
Who could ever help me
Baby won't you help me understand

Maybe I'm amazed at the way you're with me all the time
Maybe I'm afraid of the way I leave you
Maybe I'm amazed at the way you help me sing my song
Right me when I'm wrong
Maybe I'm amazed at the way I really need you

I can't let go...?

Help me out...
Or hold me down...
I feel my world tumbling...
Spiraling down...
I can’t let go...
Something’s wrong, I can’t let go...
Something's wrong, Do I want to let go...?


The cold is circling around me,
It brings with it memories,
They wash over me, rain over me,
I feel my world tumbling...
Spiraling down...
I can't let go...
Something’s wrong, I can’t let go...
Something's wrong, Do I want to let go...?


The new me, she's cruel,
It's almost too much for my heart,
She laughs at me, mocks me,
I feel my world tumbling...
Spiraling down...
I can't let go...
Something’s wrong, I can’t let go...
Something's wrong, Do I want to let go...?

When the rain of memories falls,
It tears my soul apart,
When it rains...
Why does it rain so slowly...?
When it rains...
Why can't I let go...?

Wednesday 23 January 2008

RAGS ROCKS VIZAG!


It is going to be a year this March since my friend, Rohit Anant Ganapati, succumbed to cancer. His family has registered a trust called the Rohit Memorial Foundation in his memory. PARIKRAMA is going to do the ROHIT MEMORIAL CONCERT at Vizag on Feb 10th 2008 at TENNITI PARK (Ro loved this beach)... All the money raised will be forwarded to the RAGS FOUNDATION and the SANSKRITI FOUNDATION. They are working for youth suffering from heart ailments and cancer. If any of you reading this are going to be in vizag please attend the concert or atleast contribute to this cause in any way that you can. Contact 9848191866 for tickets and send any contributions in favour of "ROHIT MEMORIAL FOUNDATION" AT VIZAG.

THE LEGEND OF ROHIT ANANT GANAPATI LIVES ON.

Wednesday 9 January 2008

Irreversible changes?

Well there was a time when you let me know
What's really going on below
But now you never show that to me do you?

And there was a time when I let you know
What's really going on below
But now I never show that to you do I?

The perfect conversation

When time spent together is something like a letter...
The kind that someone writes but never sends...

Now wouldn't that be nice?