Wednesday 27 June 2007

Luggage woes...

Okay, major luggage problems people... Hyper-ventilation happening!!!

I started packing today... I have too much stuff... I didn't see this coming!!!

I hate Air Deccan for allowing only 15 kilos!!! Absolutely detest them... There is no way i can manage within that god forsaken limit!!! And I hate paying excess baggage... What the hell do I do??? Please don't say something like just don't take so much... U think i haven't already thought of that??? There is nothing i can not carry... Well, actually there is but i don't want to remove them... Why couldn't I have just taken everything last time???

This happens every time I pack... It's been 4 years tanvi... have you learnt nothing... nothing woman????

That's it... It's official... I'm an idiot... And I'm screwed...

Friday 22 June 2007

Friggin' change!!!

What happens when the things that you thought were the constants in your life start to change in ways that you thought unfathomable before? And the things that you had written off and given up on suddenly come back with a bang and become glaringly relevant? We’ve been told things change and blah blah blah but there are always some things you count on to never change. Some things that you define your life by. Things that have made you the person that you are. If those things are no longer true then is everything you believe in a lie? Who are you? Is it okay to continue to base your beliefs upon things that have been proved wrong right in front of your eyes? Is that just being plain stupid? Or is it being hopeful?

Am I supposed to revamp my entire belief system just because circumstances change and some people let me down? Maybe it is time to change because maybe I’m letting some people down too. Maybe the problem is that I haven’t changed. Or changed in ways that aren’t apparent to me as yet. The thing that pisses me off is why one is thrown into turmoil just as things are setting into a nice comfortable rhythm? Why are we constantly being tested? Is it so that we can prove that we deserve the good things in life? But if we’re constantly proving ourselves when are we going to enjoy the good stuff, hah? Ufff... all is I know is that I didn’t need such a long holiday. I should not be left alone with my thoughts. Sanyal and I already established that fact!

Wednesday 20 June 2007

Rereading Gibran

Isn't it amazing how one book can teach you so much? Every time I read Prophet something new seems to pop up. I guess our state of mind affects what we take away from a book. This is the verse that hit me this time around... On friendship...

And let your best be for your friend.

If he must know the ebb of your tide, let him know its flood also.

For what is your friend that you should seek him with hours to kill?

Seek him always with hours to live.

For it is his to fill your need, but not your emptiness.

And in the sweetness of friendship let there be laughter, and sharing of pleasures.

For in the dew of little things the heart finds its morning and is refreshed.

Saturday 16 June 2007

Orientation over

Last day of orientation. Just walked out of the feedback session to finish packing. Luckily, I am usually very preoccupied on the days that I am travelling what with atleast 20 to-do lists doing rounds in my head. So I haven't had much time to focus on how I'm feeling. I think I'm sad that it's over. These times are never going to come back again. We'll never have this place all to ourselves. Gosh, I never learnt to share, did I? But then we're going to be moving on to things that will be more fun, I hope. And I get to know my friends better... I have two more years!!! :-)

So, going home... mumma and papa, food, AC... Suddenly, I'm not that sad anymore :-)

Wednesday 13 June 2007

Flustered and overloaded, already!!!??!! :-)

It's been really hectic the past few days. A good friend fell terribly ill and we had to rush her to the hospital early in the morning. I was petrified! I guess one never realises how much they really care for a person till something like this happens. She is absolutely fine now, thank god! It was just that one bad night.

Adding to the fact that we have 7-8 hours of boring classes almost everyday are those god damn presentations we have to make. Sure, I've heard the "Might as well get used to it" crap but that doesn't make the process any less tedious! The good thing is that I'm getting to know some of my batch mates better but I think that's where the goodness ends. I think I am officially stressed out!!!!

I cannot complain about the 2-3 hrs of sleep every night thing coz' I've realised that I'm doing it voluntarily. I could decide to sleep a little earlier than 5, actually a lot earlier than 5 but I don't. Lots of reasons for that. Firstly, neend aati hi nahi. My sleep-cycle seems to have changed. That didn't take very long, did it? Secondly, I enjoy spending time with my new friends. I was wondering the other day how I feel so close to some of them after having known them for less than a month. I realised that we've all had a lot of time to spend together coz' of those 4-5 hrs we get from not sleeping. Plus, we're all living together... that helps a lot!

Oh, and we had a good day day before. Went Saree shopping, ate a good meal and saw ocean's 13. We were 36 MICAns there... nice! It was a little chaotic getting it organized, I'm sure. I had a tough enough time handing out the tickets so I can imagine! But it was fun.

Back to the grind. Yet another presentation to make. Hopefully the last for the next 2 weeks...

Saturday 9 June 2007

Interesting day...

Okay, so TMM wasn't that bad today. Maybe coz' i bunked the first session??? He redeemed himself but still got a little too agitated wen anyone disagreed with him. I guess he isn't used to his views being questioned. Well, that is likely to change now!!!

Our presentations were due in biz comm today. We did a good job even though we couldn't complete our presentation coz' we ran out of time. Last night's hard work paid off! :-)

Another group showcasing talent at MICA showed a 30 second clipping of me doing a monologue from the last play that i performed. I am thoroughly embarrassed!!! It's the first time I have seen myself perform- it's really funny... god knows what those DU judges were thinking!!!

I got yelled at today. I am super pissed about that. I don't think I deserved that at all but I better not start to question authority so early. I might as well save it for when it really matters and not for times like this when my ego takes a battering. But still, it was wrong!!!!!!!

Friday 8 June 2007

TMM... whaaaaaa????

Oh my god!!! I have never felt so stupid in my life! We have just started this new course called theories in mass media and I have no friggin' clue abt wats happening man! And I thought i was well-read... haha... Obviously I'm nowhere close. MICA is shattering quite a few of my illusions, I must say! Anyway, so the instructor is throwing all these fancy-schmancy names at us and keeps using fundoo terms. Today he explicitly told one of us that we think too simply. I mean, hello!!! His inability to "come down" (The use of that term is highly suspect) to our level and teach us needs to be adressed. Why should we accept or agree with something he says just because he can rattle off the names of 5 more theories than we can??? Oh and to top it all off he calls MICA a 2nd grade b-school... Aaaaaaaaaahhhhhh!!! That just did it for me. I don't think he can do anything to redeem himself now. As soon as his class starts I'm probably going to switch off and play the dot game. The sad thing is that he seems like a really interesting person with pile-on experience but if he can't make us relate to him in any way then all that goes to a waste. But there is still hope... maybe he'll get better... or maybe I'll get a little more patient... :-)