Wednesday 27 June 2007
I started packing today... I have too much stuff... I didn't see this coming!!!
I hate Air Deccan for allowing only 15 kilos!!! Absolutely detest them... There is no way i can manage within that god forsaken limit!!! And I hate paying excess baggage... What the hell do I do??? Please don't say something like just don't take so much... U think i haven't already thought of that??? There is nothing i can not carry... Well, actually there is but i don't want to remove them... Why couldn't I have just taken everything last time???
This happens every time I pack... It's been 4 years tanvi... have you learnt nothing... nothing woman????
That's it... It's official... I'm an idiot... And I'm screwed...
Friday 22 June 2007
What happens when the things that you thought were the constants in your life start to change in ways that you thought unfathomable before? And the things that you had written off and given up on suddenly come back with a bang and become glaringly relevant? We’ve been told things change and blah blah blah but there are always some things you count on to never change. Some things that you define your life by. Things that have made you the person that you are. If those things are no longer true then is everything you believe in a lie? Who are you? Is it okay to continue to base your beliefs upon things that have been proved wrong right in front of your eyes? Is that just being plain stupid? Or is it being hopeful?
Am I supposed to revamp my entire belief system just because circumstances change and some people let me down? Maybe it is time to change because maybe I’m letting some people down too. Maybe the problem is that I haven’t changed. Or changed in ways that aren’t apparent to me as yet. The thing that pisses me off is why one is thrown into turmoil just as things are setting into a nice comfortable rhythm? Why are we constantly being tested? Is it so that we can prove that we deserve the good things in life? But if we’re constantly proving ourselves when are we going to enjoy the good stuff, hah? Ufff... all is I know is that I didn’t need such a long holiday. I should not be left alone with my thoughts. Sanyal and I already established that fact!
Wednesday 20 June 2007
And let your best be for your friend.
If he must know the ebb of your tide, let him know its flood also.
For what is your friend that you should seek him with hours to kill?
Seek him always with hours to live.
For it is his to fill your need, but not your emptiness.
And in the sweetness of friendship let there be laughter, and sharing of pleasures.
For in the dew of little things the heart finds its morning and is refreshed.
Saturday 16 June 2007
So, going home... mumma and papa, food, AC... Suddenly, I'm not that sad anymore :-)
Wednesday 13 June 2007
Adding to the fact that we have 7-8 hours of boring classes almost everyday are those god damn presentations we have to make. Sure, I've heard the "Might as well get used to it" crap but that doesn't make the process any less tedious! The good thing is that I'm getting to know some of my batch mates better but I think that's where the goodness ends. I think I am officially stressed out!!!!
I cannot complain about the 2-3 hrs of sleep every night thing coz' I've realised that I'm doing it voluntarily. I could decide to sleep a little earlier than 5, actually a lot earlier than 5 but I don't. Lots of reasons for that. Firstly, neend aati hi nahi. My sleep-cycle seems to have changed. That didn't take very long, did it? Secondly, I enjoy spending time with my new friends. I was wondering the other day how I feel so close to some of them after having known them for less than a month. I realised that we've all had a lot of time to spend together coz' of those 4-5 hrs we get from not sleeping. Plus, we're all living together... that helps a lot!
Oh, and we had a good day day before. Went Saree shopping, ate a good meal and saw ocean's 13. We were 36 MICAns there... nice! It was a little chaotic getting it organized, I'm sure. I had a tough enough time handing out the tickets so I can imagine! But it was fun.
Back to the grind. Yet another presentation to make. Hopefully the last for the next 2 weeks...
Saturday 9 June 2007
Our presentations were due in biz comm today. We did a good job even though we couldn't complete our presentation coz' we ran out of time. Last night's hard work paid off! :-)
Another group showcasing talent at MICA showed a 30 second clipping of me doing a monologue from the last play that i performed. I am thoroughly embarrassed!!! It's the first time I have seen myself perform- it's really funny... god knows what those DU judges were thinking!!!
I got yelled at today. I am super pissed about that. I don't think I deserved that at all but I better not start to question authority so early. I might as well save it for when it really matters and not for times like this when my ego takes a battering. But still, it was wrong!!!!!!!