Expectations... the culprit!

“I do my thing and you do yours. I am not in this world to live up to your expectations, and you are not in this world to live up to mine. You are you and I am I, and if by chance we find each other, then it is beautiful. If not, it can't be helped.” ~ Frederick Perls

Just imagine... if one had no expectations from anyone there is no way they can be hurt and disappointed. Because people are going to let you down eventually. You build up this crazy impossible picture in your head about what the person can do for you, and that just isn't going to happen. Then you go around being all angry at the person because they let you down. Well, that really isn't true is it? You are the one who put yourself in that position, by having those unrealistic expectations. It really all is in your hands. You can be as happy as you want to be. Just don't depend on anyone else for it. That's the key... Easier said than done though

Slipping through my fingers

You know how sometimes you see things just falling apart around you? Sometimes it is things you know are bound to fall apart because you want them so bad you have ended up jinxing them yourself. Sometimes it is things that are so precious to you and you realised this only after it started slipping through your fingers? And you feel helpless and tell yourself there was nothing you could have done about it, it wasn't in your control, you didn't see it coming. But that isn't true, is it? There is always something you can do about it. You can always see it coming if you just pay attention and not take things for granted. If you stop letting your insecurities get the best of you. You tell yourself before you can even attempt it that it isn't going to work, that you are going to fail so why even bother trying? How messed up is that! The worst is when you are so scared to fail that you end up sabotaging the whole thing yourself. That is another whole level of messed up!!! Ah well, nothing I can do about it i guess!!!!