Slipping through my fingers

You know how sometimes you see things just falling apart around you? Sometimes it is things you know are bound to fall apart because you want them so bad you have ended up jinxing them yourself. Sometimes it is things that are so precious to you and you realised this only after it started slipping through your fingers? And you feel helpless and tell yourself there was nothing you could have done about it, it wasn't in your control, you didn't see it coming. But that isn't true, is it? There is always something you can do about it. You can always see it coming if you just pay attention and not take things for granted. If you stop letting your insecurities get the best of you. You tell yourself before you can even attempt it that it isn't going to work, that you are going to fail so why even bother trying? How messed up is that! The worst is when you are so scared to fail that you end up sabotaging the whole thing yourself. That is another whole level of messed up!!! Ah well, nothing I can do about it i guess!!!!